me and my heart

The heart grows fonder
And I wonder
How did all of this happen?
Why am I chosen?

Feeling sick in my stomach
Everytime I see him smile
They are all twisted inside
Even when he is just standing by my side

The heart grows fonder
And it never failed to make me wonder
When did I ever fall for him?
Was it from the beginning?

I always made a fool out of myself
But he never say that he mind and care
I cannot put the blame on him for falling
As I am the one who refuse to give in

The heart grows fonder
And it is still making me wonder
Is it really worth it to keep it to myself?
Or is it better to let it all out eventhough the ending
would not be like how I expected?